Right / Wrong Desire to start in a big company?

I applied for the P&G and J&J campus recruitment a few days ago.

When I did the elements test from P&G, I was feeling it’s quite interesting. But when J&J’s little arrows appeared in over 3 questions, I was feeling why people use this kind of test to judge people for their intelligence. Maybe there is no better way currently as there are thousands of people competing for one position. There should be a way to pick out one candidate, no matter what.

But from my stand of point, I was feeling this is really a huge world with a ton of people you will never meet for the entire lifetime. By this I mean, there’re so many ways of living. The way to happiness is not limited to enter a high profile company.

I know I want be become more intelligent but I am doubting was my thinking that I should enter a Fortune 500 company is a right idea. Maybe yes, maybe not. I do have the desire, but I don’t want myself to feel miserable or it’s just myself feeling disgusted or upset during the test process. I was nervous so my intelligence was degraded to some extent. I kept touching my back because of my nervousness.

Last night, I was feeling exhausted when realizing I wasn’t given a chance to take the verbal test from Adidas. A few days ago, I was refused for a basic position to write WeChat copies. I wasn’t upset bc I wasn’t so interested in the position. After two or three failures from the top companies, I knew it’s not easy even I’m back home. Here are so many students from all backgrounds competing with me. I’d better hold on. This is what I told myself before I went sleep. I told myself I need some discipline to hold my energy and keep trying.

This morning, before the J&J test, I read something from Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill. I read this kind of financial books recently partly because of my fear of not getting a job, not feeding myself.

My situation is that I utilized lots of years for two diplomas – one bachelor, another master. My professional experience is poor for anyone in the industry to see. Still, I have a high exception on my entry salary which surprises my dad. How can I have such a high expectation? But to me, it’s only a number. I don’t really care only if I can feed myself. But when the interviewer asks you, you still have to assertively give a number.

Back to the test, I was feeling furious to some points. This kind of question should be a piece of cake to me. But I made mistakes and due to the limit time for each question, I lost a few on each of the three parts.

Now, half an hour past. I am sitting here checking on my blogs. I knew today I should be open-minded. Nothing can judge or tell us who we are. If they don’t fit me, we just keep looking, trying and finding the optimal way for ourselves.  The next keyword is thinking about the state of mind I should have.


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